I have a hard time relaxing.
Like a really, really, stupidly hard time.
People close to me and my daily on-goings will know this. I'm all work and actively trying to relax stresses me out. For some reason I cannot put my work away and swivel my chair a simple 90 degrees to game away on my television instead- If I do manage it, I feel guilty, I itch to go back to work, because all I can think about is the work I could be accomplishing right then. Thus I am pretty aghast when Kal tells me, hey, go play something on your consoles. Need to relax to balance out your workload, else your quality suffers. Yes, I know, but how can I do that when work is sitting right there, waiting to be finished?
I can't believe I didn't realize this sooner, but that was the exact problem.
When I went to San Francisco I brought along my PS4 so we could play Persona 5. And we did, and it was fun, and I didn't feel guilty about it at all. Then I came home and I figured out why its so hard for me to do the same thing here.
Because my workstation is sitting right there, staring me in the face, silently judging me while I ignore it to build social links with some pretty 2D characters. Hell, my chair to work and my chair to game are literally the same chair. (An uncomfortable office chair. That could also be a contributing factor as to why I cannot relax when I game. I associate this chair with pain lol)
Now and then I see stories of artists who have their own "studio"; like a separate room they've rented out or made in their own space solely for work. And I totally didn't understand it, until now. Before university, my work and gaming areas were already separate, so I never realized the impact until now, when my entire life is basically in one room.
Out of sight, out of mind!